20111208

things i have learnt....

I’ve learned that...

..you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

..no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.

..it takes years to build up trust and only seconds to destroy it.

..no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

..it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

..you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.

..you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.

..you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.

..you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

..you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

..you can keep going long after you can’t.

..we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

..either you control your attitude or it controls you.

..regardless of how hot & steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades & there had better be something else to take its place.

..heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

..money is a lousy way of keeping score.

..my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

..sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

..true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

..just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

..maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

..it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

..no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

..our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

..a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

..just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

..we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

..you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

..two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

..no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

..even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

..credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

..the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

..it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.

..people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did but people will never forget how you made them feel.

20111130

letting go


who knew it would be so difficult to come to terms with the loss of a loved one, more so when the loved one is a four-legged furry one. the family mourned the loss of our beloved cat last night, who we had been with us for thirteen years. he practically grew up with the daughter. she was four when we got him.

thirteen years of him irritating us (and vice versa), greeting us at the door when we got back from work or school, thirteen years of feeding him at the hint of a meow...

furball mika, we will miss you dearly....may you rest in peace



20111120

twenty three years on...

the sixth formers of '87/88 met up again two years later...this time we had the pleasure of the presence of our teachers & guest of honor was our principal, whom i would fondly refer to as mr. c...

didn't know what to expect.. would they remember us? would we remember them? well of all the teachers who came, only one taught my class. it was kinda embarrassing when all of us who were seated at one table who were from the same class (all the grand nine & one castaway of us) could not for the life of us remember what subject he taught us.. "sejarah melayu lah"... "no lah maths lah"... "we had sejarah melayu???" went round and round and round and yet we were none the wiser. so we said "you know what, why don't we just ask him?"...we did, and the horror!! he didn't remember teaching our class... ah well twenty three years on...must be the age factor... or that we weren't paying attention..all ten of us. surprisingly none of the smart asses from our class attended, i wonder why... i bet they would have remembered.

so anyways, moi was fashionably late. late. yes. fashionably. well i'd like to think so. ahaks!! i have no shame... and the evening started (really guys, you didn't have to wait for me you know). ahahahahahhaha... started off with the ice breaker..weird one that was. for a minute there i swore he was showing some pg13 or pg42 porn for the uninitiated... [note to self : when trying to avoid boring ice breaker sessions, use loo at the most bottom floor at the hotel on the other side of the street]. but all in all, it wasn't so bad. we survived. mr. c reminisced on how he ended up in the school and what he had to go through to turn the school around.

you know how they say time flies when you're having fun. well i must say, that two years in that school was the best time of my life -carefree, no worries in the world save for exams & it went by so fast that before you know it, twenty three years on it's a sense of deja vu when we seem them familiar faces, the familiar names. everyone spent the evening exchanging stories & having a good laugh.. it was a simple, yet beautiful event. we were just so comfortable with each other and it's like we never left school. all that was missing were us in uniforms, the infamous mr. c's canes and the pond that had us all curious on what was in it.

we are glad that we had the opportunity to show our gratitude to the educators who played a part in making us who we are - the persons we have become today, successful in our own right. we have only but a simple thank you from the bottom of our hearts.




so at the end of it all, it turned out great. lets not wait for the next twenty three years.


20111108

nice...

42 caught up with me yesterday... got a whole load of messages sending wishes and greetings and all things good. felt nice. if i got it because i have a special place in their life, i am glad. if i got it cos facebook sent them a reminder...well that's nice too.

started the day with a nice brunch with the family. what a perfect way to start. then the hubby bought me a present. love it...

today i receive a mail from my evil twin on how she made a donation in my name as my birthday gift to the national cancer society. never has a gift been more special. a gift of hope from the heart. i'm loving it so much....

friends like these are diamonds in the rough. i am so glad she has come into my life...

again - from the bottom of my heart, thank you so much to my evil twin. (yes the irony of it)

20111028

over the hill...

Heard on the radio some time back that some women over 30 are not comfortable revealing their true age. Really?? I wonder why...

My 42nd birthday (yes 42 - you heard me loud and clear) is peeking from just round the corner & I am none the prouder to declare my true age. Would I change things or turn back time if I could? Nope.

Life begins at 30 or 40 or 50 - realistically, it is when you want it to begin. When you want to make good of it. Are you proud of or disappointed with what you have achieved or what you may have missed? Well I am proud of all that I have gone through..good or bad. My mantra - Everything happens for a reason. So good or bad, I take it in my stride. What didn't kill me made me stronger.

Would I want to go back being 20 or below 30? No way... I am happy with what I have become. More confident, mature (or so it seems) and having a blast at life. Why would I want to settle for anything less?

So there, I am over the hill and damn proud of it!!

20111020

welcoming myself back...

wow!! it's been a while now.. well actually a long while. i have been up to my nostrils with work and such. not helping is the non ideas of what to rant about.

then i get a comment that my blog is interesting. thank you very much if you enjoy it. too bad really if you think it sucks. then a couple of friends ask me what's been happening, why is my blog 'dead'. so i decided to pay a visit to my space...and at the same time hope something comes to mind on what i shall ramble and rant about.

well, it will come. soon enough. i promise. i hope. don't give up on me yet. stay close......

20110516

Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you

You know during the recent Bruno Mars concert held in Malaysia, seems a young chap proposed to his girl during the performance of 'Marry You'. He felt the song appropriate...

Really? Did he know what the song is really about?

It's a beautiful night, We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Is it the look in your eyes, Or is it this dancing shoes
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go
No one will know, Come on girl
Who cares if we're trashed got a a pocket full of cash we can blow
Shots of patron, And it's on girl

Don't say no, no, no, no-no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah
And we'll go, go go, go-go
If you're ready like I'm ready

Cause it's a beautiful night, We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Is it the look in your eyes, Or is it this dancing shoes
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like ooh,
So whatcha wanna do, Let's just run girl
If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool
No, I won't blame you, It was fun girl

Don't say no, no, no, no-no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah
And we'll go, go go, go-go
If you're ready like I'm ready

Cause it's a beautiful night, We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Is it the look in your eyes, Or is it this dancing shoes
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you

Just say I do
Tell me right now baby
Tell me right now baby

Cause it's a beautiful night, We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

Is it the look in your eyes, Or is it this dancing shoes
Who cares baby, I think I wanna marry you

Really now? THIS is the song you want to be proposed to? Yes even if I was looking for something dumb to do, I don't THINK I wanna marry you...



20110505

And so the saying goes....

The saying goes "The hand that rocks the cradle is the one that rules the world"...

I might want to change it a wee bit... "The hand that rocks the cradle is the same hand that can knock senses into you when need be"

HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY TO ALL THE YUMMY MOMMIES!!!!

20110309

Bringing Up Kids

Have we ever stopped and wonder what went wrong when and where? Kids these days have forgotten the simple magic words - please & thank you.

Just last week, the hubby and I went out for lunch & a little boy (about 5 years old or so me thinks) wanted to wash his hands. So we helped him to soap his hand and turn off the tap for him when he was done. Not a thank you from him. But then again we can't blame the kid I suppose when his dad called the waiter "Oi". Simply rude...

Then this morning as I was walking towards the car to send the daughter to school, a mom and her two kids in tow was walking towards the car. Mom wasn't bothered with helping her kids with their school bags up the stairs. The girl is probably 8 or 9 and the boy is my guess 4 or 5. A kind elderly gentleman helped the kids with the bags & not a single 'thank you' from the kids, never mind the mother. Mom was already waiting in the car...

During lunch with a girlfriend a while back, she was telling of her 9 year old son who asked her "Someday, this house is going to be mine right?" to which she replied "Probably, if we still have it then or we might decide to sell it and spend all the money"

Just makes us wonder eh??

20110209

Reasons to Stop Loving

I don't really want to be in this situation but when he confides in me, I just have to lend an ear. Trying to be unbiased or judgmental but if someone gave you these reasons on why they fell out of love with you and wanted out, what would you say:

"I wanted a Cayman but you got me a Boxter, it's not what I asked for"

"She (as in the ex wife) got a bigger house than me. You are not being fair"

Go figure.

20110131

When Generosity Means Something Else

Just when I thought I knew her long enough, she goes and surprise. And not in the right way.

I have known her more than 10 years. She makes one lousy boss but she made a good friend. She offered to help if I ever needed it & she always offered me a job if she ever thought that I would benefit from it and that I could put my talent to good use.

Little did I expect of how 'insincere' she could be if she chose to.

Rewind to a little over a year ago. She received a gift hamper consisting of food stuffs for Chinese New Year last year. It was meant for all in the company but just because the card had her name on it... So anyways, we thought she would keep it till the Chinese New Year period was over and she would unwrap the hamper and share its contents. Which is what I always do when we get gifts like this.

But, no! It sat there in her room for ONE year & today she decides to give it away. Not throw it away as some food stuffs in the hamper might already have expired. No, she thought it such a waste & gave it away. To whom? The lady who cleans the office. Is she so low that she only deserves a hamper that is one year old?

I wouldn't have minded it so much if she took home when she received it one year ago. Neither would I have minded that it would simply go to waste if she decided to just dump it in the trash today. But to give it to another human being, regardless that she is just working as a cleaner?

I have lost all respect for this 'friend'....

20110128

Judge Not Others

He asks me for suggestions on what to do in Singapore as he plans to bring his family there for a holiday. I give him ideas on things that may be fun for the kids. He then tells me that he wants to treat his wife for a Chippendales show. I tell him there is no such show yet there.

And the conversation is kept light until he tells me that there is one in Bangkok. So I tell him about the ladyboy show I caught when I was in Bangkok.

This ensues...

Him: Disgusting
Me: Why
Him: Not normal human beings
Me: Who are YOU to judge?
Him: Paying customer
Me: Then why pay to go see if you are disgusted. The choice is yours
Him: Yup. My choice
Me: If you so decide to pay and watch, do not then be a hypocrite. Do not play God and judge people for what they are and what they are not. That is between them and God.

Then... SILENCE......

So there, I said my piece. Now get out of my face!!

Perfect

This is currently one of my favorite songs by one of my all time favorite artistes. She's a bit crazy but she's real. No pretences. What you see is what you get. Which is who I am. I speak as I see it. I say as I feel it. Sometimes it's tough love but life isn't a bed of roses. Even if it is, remember the thorns.

At one point in life, we get disillusioned & we want the world to end. Sometimes it's crystal clear, or it may just be a blur. If we have that someone special to hold on to, a shoulder to cry on, that faith and belief and that kind (or maybe not so kind) words of support - sometimes that's is ALL we need.

PERFECT (PINK)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than perfect
Pretty pretty please
If you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me

You’re so mean when you talk about yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I see you do the same

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel like your nothing
You’re perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try try try
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than, less than perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You’re perfect to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect

Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less than, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing, you are perfect to me





So however imperfect or messed up you think you are, someone begs to differ. If perfect is what you are looking for, then just stay the same.

Have a fantastic weekend!!

20110125

Dance!!

Oh wow!! It's been a rather long while since I have put up a post. Thank heavens I still remember the address though...

Been very busy with work (same old excuse) & probably was stuck for ideas. To start off I'd like to share this...

I Hope You Dance
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


I hope you dance... I hope you dance


I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


I hope you dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)


I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


Dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)




Note to self - give thanks for all the good things in life. Dance! Dance because I live. Dance because there is hope. Dance and never lose faith. Simply Dance. Appreciate and enjoy life while I can...


WELCOME BACK ME!!