20110131

When Generosity Means Something Else

Just when I thought I knew her long enough, she goes and surprise. And not in the right way.

I have known her more than 10 years. She makes one lousy boss but she made a good friend. She offered to help if I ever needed it & she always offered me a job if she ever thought that I would benefit from it and that I could put my talent to good use.

Little did I expect of how 'insincere' she could be if she chose to.

Rewind to a little over a year ago. She received a gift hamper consisting of food stuffs for Chinese New Year last year. It was meant for all in the company but just because the card had her name on it... So anyways, we thought she would keep it till the Chinese New Year period was over and she would unwrap the hamper and share its contents. Which is what I always do when we get gifts like this.

But, no! It sat there in her room for ONE year & today she decides to give it away. Not throw it away as some food stuffs in the hamper might already have expired. No, she thought it such a waste & gave it away. To whom? The lady who cleans the office. Is she so low that she only deserves a hamper that is one year old?

I wouldn't have minded it so much if she took home when she received it one year ago. Neither would I have minded that it would simply go to waste if she decided to just dump it in the trash today. But to give it to another human being, regardless that she is just working as a cleaner?

I have lost all respect for this 'friend'....

20110128

Judge Not Others

He asks me for suggestions on what to do in Singapore as he plans to bring his family there for a holiday. I give him ideas on things that may be fun for the kids. He then tells me that he wants to treat his wife for a Chippendales show. I tell him there is no such show yet there.

And the conversation is kept light until he tells me that there is one in Bangkok. So I tell him about the ladyboy show I caught when I was in Bangkok.

This ensues...

Him: Disgusting
Me: Why
Him: Not normal human beings
Me: Who are YOU to judge?
Him: Paying customer
Me: Then why pay to go see if you are disgusted. The choice is yours
Him: Yup. My choice
Me: If you so decide to pay and watch, do not then be a hypocrite. Do not play God and judge people for what they are and what they are not. That is between them and God.

Then... SILENCE......

So there, I said my piece. Now get out of my face!!

Perfect

This is currently one of my favorite songs by one of my all time favorite artistes. She's a bit crazy but she's real. No pretences. What you see is what you get. Which is who I am. I speak as I see it. I say as I feel it. Sometimes it's tough love but life isn't a bed of roses. Even if it is, remember the thorns.

At one point in life, we get disillusioned & we want the world to end. Sometimes it's crystal clear, or it may just be a blur. If we have that someone special to hold on to, a shoulder to cry on, that faith and belief and that kind (or maybe not so kind) words of support - sometimes that's is ALL we need.

PERFECT (PINK)

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way, it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please
Don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than perfect
Pretty pretty please
If you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me

You’re so mean when you talk about yourself
You are wrong
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how big you’ll make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It’s enough
I’ve done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I see you do the same

Pretty, pretty please
Don’t you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel like your nothing
You’re perfect to me

The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try try try
But we try too hard, it’s a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they’re everywhere
They don’t like my jeans, they don’t get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don’t you ever ever feel
Like you’re less than, less than perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing
You’re perfect to me
You’re perfect
You’re perfect

Pretty, pretty please don’t you ever ever feel like you’re less than, less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you’re nothing, you are perfect to me





So however imperfect or messed up you think you are, someone begs to differ. If perfect is what you are looking for, then just stay the same.

Have a fantastic weekend!!

20110125

Dance!!

Oh wow!! It's been a rather long while since I have put up a post. Thank heavens I still remember the address though...

Been very busy with work (same old excuse) & probably was stuck for ideas. To start off I'd like to share this...

I Hope You Dance
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


I hope you dance... I hope you dance


I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin'
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


I hope you dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)


I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance


Dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
I hope you dance... I hope you dance
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder where those years have gone)




Note to self - give thanks for all the good things in life. Dance! Dance because I live. Dance because there is hope. Dance and never lose faith. Simply Dance. Appreciate and enjoy life while I can...


WELCOME BACK ME!!